Tuesday, December 1, 2009

School is really lame, boring etc etc.

Yes, you heard it from me, although probably not first:
School sucks. Thats right! It's really really not what I want to spend my time doing. At least not with the classes I'm taking just now, again.

U guessed it, it's MATH! The slow agonizing death of numbers (and more and more resently: letters too).

I seem to be able to solve any problem though. I kinda always have been, but the time spent on it is just not worth it! By the time I'm finished with the equation (or whatever) I shoud have been doing at least 5.

I practice and practice, but the solving rate is still the same. What I mean is: I solve an equation, and the next does not go any faster. Even if I use the same technique.

How come I'm so slow? What is damming up my river of thoughts that brings the boat of "solvation"? The river carves its way into my brain, but the flow-rate is still the same.

I try to do it faster, just to speed it up, but then I utterly fail to solve it. I go wrong somewhere.

Why don't I have a talent for this?

I can tell if a building is stable just by looking at it. I see the forces in the framework, the forces from the roof and the floors and the bending moment on the structure.
I eaven see the answer to most math-problems, I see what most answers should be. Most of the time I get the right answer by reverse-engineering my way trough it!


And that is bloody annoying.

And I don't want to go to school anymore! I want to work! To  be a part of a team, or independently make my own way! Solve REAL problems or issues!
Contribute to society!

Have a home! Have a wife! Have kids! Have a job! Be appreciated for what I do!

How I long for it all...

On the plus side:
I have a home, I will have a vife by 17. July next year, kids are planned sometime after the marriage... So a JOB. That's what's left.

Just have to finish school/college... So:

This looks like a job for: SUPER OLE MAGNUS!